After a long weekend, I thought I would be rested. I was rested. Now I am not. I love being a teacher, but my heart is longing for more time with my children. The stress of educating our lowest learners with increasing demands from administration is taking its toll. I know the plans God has for me are far greater than I could ever imagine, so I will keep on waiting.
The "bug" also got me this week. I always despise being sick, but I used to be able to find some joy in sick days because I got to take a bath, catch up on my TV/movie watching, and maybe read if I wasn't too busy sleeping. Now being a mom comes first, and sick or not, my children still want and need me. In fact they seem to need and want me even more when all I want to do is crawl back under the covers.
This week has been difficult. I am in a funk. I feel like I don't deserve to be in a funk. I am so blessed, there are so many others who deserve the funk more than I do, but yet here I am, in a funk. I need sunshine and healthy kids, less stress, and more time to "play." That is on me though, happiness is not an emotion, it is something I must work at every day. I have all the components for happiness, I just need to make the decision to feel it...everyday.